three truths. God hears our hearts far more loudly than He does the sounds we make. like a broken-down car in need of repair, but He says: start the journey anyway. truth that seeps from the cracks of "stories" is absorbed deeper into the human heart than truth told as "objective fact".
thing is. if i did lose my memory. who are those who'd lose their memory of me as well.
my frame softened. and my ends, smoothed. getting behind the white block line. changing all that i know. or at least, what i thought i knew.
what i've taken away. that sometimes we can get so caught up with whats wrong, we forget to affirm what went right. all of it is bigger than me. yet in all my weakness and inadequacy, i was favoured for the task of conveying His message through song. this foolishness of God is what ridicules the wisest of Man.
strange how raeger ends up in all my solo shots.
yes yes. my applications call me out of reverie.
here i am waiting abide in me, i pray here i am longing for You hide me in Your love bring me to my knees may i know Jesus more and more come live in me all my life, take over come breathe in me and i will rise on eagle's wings.
perfection at 3:43 PM
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Sunday, March 16, 2008
i forgot how my house looks like in the day.
i've been wearing black for the past four days. were those unwitting decisions and precise reflections?
the kids look absolutely adorable in their sleeping bags. makes my maternal instincts kick in. what a rarity.
you cannot fully think and feel simultaneously. one will somehow disrupt the other. so when they tell you to FEEL it. it just means, dont think. go with the flow in spirit. it makes up for what the former could produce.
beautiful with an edge. thats what it is.
for what its worth. i give all of it to You.
so now i'm giving back to Him all the praise He's worthy of i've been forgiven and thats why i love Him so much.
perfection at 4:56 PM
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Wednesday, March 12, 2008
off with these damned transition phases. and i dont do selling very well.
the explosive discovery. more, to me, like groping in the dark. a newfound authority i've yet to learn to exert. exciting and powerful, uncontrolled and purposeless. but it was just another step in the plan. voices and ranges.
looking forward to the movie with the kids on friday. something to break the monotony, i guess. it gets a bit defeating. and i cant even seek solace in the one thing i really need right now.
if you're on your way i'm not gonna write you to stay if all you have is leaving i'm gonna need a better reason to write you a love song today.
perfection at 3:49 PM
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Tuesday, March 04, 2008
okay. results are out this friday. God bless me, amen.
i'd liken it to a stupor. a spur of the moment. a tad of lost consciousness. but who could've helped it. with the heavy thickness of night weighing upon my being. susceptible, retrospectively unacceptable. thought i'd wake up to find it all pass. a secret desire pushed back into the recesses. but, either i havent woken up. or i've lost my common sense.
so what they say is true. invest in getting yourself busy and naturally. it takes your mind off what you're not supposed to be thinking of. if not for just a little while. of precious relief.
its bewildering how i can get so absorbed. that i dont even want be part of anything around me. makes it way easy to lose track of time. cause its just nice going back to that sensation. most of the time, its a loud noise. or another figure growing larger that snaps me back. is this being dreamy or plain unproductive?
a day in the foolish sea. makes maturity much appreciated.
oh yes, how could i forget. you're not here. doubt you ever will be.
our day will come if we just wait a while no tears for us think love and wear a smile.
perfection at 6:59 PM
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Saturday, March 01, 2008
probably it comes with their upbringing. how they ease into semi-detached conversations. who make light of mock insults and catch sarcarsm well. unfazed by silence between. taking pleasure in casual, uncalculated words. now who can we speak to, so we dont have to dodge furtive, unsettling glances?
oh the excitement of watching another movie. with kids and a whole cinema to ourselves. another one for the collection.
i know i'm getting it right this time.
why would any woman kill or even think that by killing her children, she could win back her husband who walked out on them? a man that costs you your children. i can never get past that.
i can see clearly now the rain is gone i can see all obstacles in my way.
perfection at 7:24 PM
theJOURNEY.
theTUNES.
what sing you.
theMUSICIAN.
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